Julie’s Journal

Not much went on here today.  We got up and went to church this morning.  Apparently the service was a funeral??? but I didn’t get to hear it. I might listen to it from the website, because now I am curious to know what it was about.  I worked in the 2 and 3 yr old nursery this morning.  It was fun I guess.  I kind of like seeing how Jasmin interacts with other kids her age.

We had hot dogs for lunch.  I took the kids over to a friend’s house to play this afternoon.  It rained most of the afternoon. Sam, Jasmin and I took a nap.  We made the kids do their homework when they got home, ordered pizza and I think we sent them to bed after that.  It was not really a fun day.  The kids had fun with their friends.  It was not fun to me.

I am in a yucky mood.  I am feeling discouraged and like giving up on trying to do whatever it is I am trying to do. I wanted every day this summer to be an adventure.  I have tried to make a schedule, which has been a challenge to try to keep.  I have created a chore system which we did nothing with for the entire weekend! We bought workbooks for the kids to help them to review what they learned last year and get ready for the fall…and we are already behind.  More than all that…I want to make memories with my kids.  I have a lot of ideas I want to try…but everything is such a challenge.  There is always at least one kid who doesn’t want to do it, they are constantly fighting…or else they are pushing each others’ buttons on purpose.  It’s so mean. Why do kids have to be like that? I know they are still getting used to being around each other 24/7, but I am so frustrated that I apparently don’t know how to deal with them and help them to get along with each other.  And on top of all that…my house is in worse shape than it is when I am working.  Life is just not easy today.  So I am glad that today is almost over.  Maybe tomorrow I can have a better attitude and make it a better day.